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Friday, November 30, 2012

Tomorrow is December 1st.

Today marks the end of National Diabetes Awareness Month.

I'm going out with a bang, a diabetes shirt, and a fuzzy scarf. And tomorrow I'll be back in my usual colours and I will look back on this blue month with success in my heart. (And tomorrow we also get to think about Christmas. And the HOBBIT!!! 2 weeks!!!)

And Diabetes Awareness never really ends. It'll be there forever, until someone finds a cure. :)

Wednesday, November 28, 2012


This is late! Because I have been working on my video most of the evening (REALLY addictive)!

I learned that it's really hard to fake pulling out a site on a doorknob! Pretty near impossible!

I learned that video making is awesome, fun, and addictive!

I learned that you can make one picture be all rainbow-y by pressing one button! WHICH IS PRETTY FREAKIN' AMAZING!

I also learned today at school (learning at school - what a concept!) that some boys are actually nice and willing to work and THEY WILL DO IT WITHOUT YOU YELLING AT THEM!

And that my French/Socials teacher is awesome because she banished all the blue-eyed people to a small carpet on the floor to teach us how stupid the original Europeans were.

And that feels do not qualify as a teenage problem for the general teenage population.

I also learned today that my English teacher does not want me to conclude with this, so; That's all, folks!


Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Guess who?

Guess who has a cold now, having sparingly used a whole travel pack of tissues today and hasn't had a blood sugar below 10 since last night?

And guess who is starting to get somewhere on their video but is also kind of lost and confused and needs to enlist the help of someone *coughs -  acertainhobbitlovingawesomegirlwhoisbeggingtohelpwhichmakesmeveryhappy endcough*? :)


I'm now 17.3, which is the highest I've been in quite a while, and I don't like it. Not okay. (Although I suppose the hot chocolate and Timbits didn't help...but I bolused!)

And now I'm going to go try and figure out my video. (I'm at 11 seconds so far! Although 3 of them don't work how I want them to!)

Monday, November 26, 2012

Bored of blue.

I started my video today!

And it's be-oo-tiful! (Well, not really, but I STARTED it and I'm getting somewhere, at least XD)

Also, I am beginning to be very sick of blue. I dream in pink, purples, greens...(not really).
I bought a really pretty green shirt and a green sweater yesterday, but I can't wear them for four more days because I am NOT giving up on my promises to myself. (And I know that I haven't posted every day, as my other promise, but I tried! And it was ALMOST every day!) But I do really look forward to wearing other colours. Although diabetes awareness month is not only this month, but all year long. I will continue to spread awareness and I hope you do too - I'm just not going to do it by wearing nothing but blue.

AND I finished watching another TV series today. Which means I have very little to keep me going until December...when it all begins. *evil laugh*

Hobbit on the 14th, Les Mis on the 25th, Doctor Who on the 25th with evil snowmen and a new companion, and then there's those four weeks in two months that we get off of school...TOO MUCH TIME TO FANGIRL!

Okay. I'm okay. That's all.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Craft fair was today!

(And time ran away yesterday so I completely forgot XD)

I made $120, sold many owls, hedgehogs and teddy bears, and Lorenzo [the gentlemanly flamingo] was a  hit. A very fashionable flamingo indeed.

And I've been told that I need to dress as Alice in Wonderland next Halloween with Lorenzo as my croquet mallet. :)

I love pompom wool. It's fuzzy and thick and it's like wearing a scarf made of cloud bubbles.

I was almost offended today because one lady that came to the Craft fair came to my table, looked, talked to me a bit, then went next to my mum's table (she was manning the not-handmade-group-fundraiser knitted hats table) and said 'So, you are the producer of all those items?' No, it was me! (I did tell her that.) Just because I'm young I can't knit? Ein. It was kinda funny.

And that is all I have today. Now I can focus on other knitted things! No more owls/hedgehogs/teddy bears/ladybugs/amassing large quantities of small knitted items!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Back in blue!

Back in blue today, with my very favourite winky neon blue smiley face shirt. (That is the best shirt I have ever bought. Most definitely.)

I made a presentation today. In a class where I don't REALLY know anybody.

And I did not die.
And actually, I'm really happy with how it went.

Right before I went on, I could actually hear my heart pounding. Completly legitly. I thought I was going to fall down.

But I was okay! And now (I think) I'll be totally cool with speaking up in class and doing presentations in the future!
(I also learned that rehearsing is the best thing you can ever do. I had basically memorised the part that I had to read, and the teacher commented on how good that was. :) )

I had a really good idea for my video's conclusion today, so I WILL finish planning and I WILL start it. Sunday maybe?

Craft fair this weekend. I'm so excited 'cause my table's going to be beautiful!

And I also got an email from my diabetic cousin who I've wanted to talk to for ages but only got contact from today. :)

AND I finished my knitted flamingo. He's huge and bowtied and tophatted and now has a face. I think his name shall be Lorenzo. Or Ralph. (Or Danny. Because Danny always wins.)

So, all in all, this has been a VERY good day.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Mountains and not noticing.

I woke up at 3.3.

Had breakfast, went to school, worked through an hour of french. And then I realized that I'd forgotten to bolus.
Having learned from past experience, I did not bolus for the carbs, but tested to correct.


Whatever, I know if I correct it it'll come down soon because it's a food high.

An hour later, 3.2.


I was actually so angry and so low that I actually stomped and punched the desk. (It was break, so only a few people looked at me. ;) )

I hate crazy mountains like this. They suck.
But I survived. Although I felt low for, like, EVER.

And I ran out of blue today. I had to wear green. But green is close to blue, and I was wearing blue jeans and a blue bag. So it's alright.

And when I told one of my friends that I ran out of blue, they said 'So? Why does it matter?' Apparently nobody has noticed that I, the one who VERY RARELY wears blue, has worn blue for a MONTH and has not been seen in pink since October! Love you guys too. XD <3

Monday, November 19, 2012

Another post of randomness!

Yesterday I was awake for 17 hours straight, only 30 minutes of which I was at home with Internet access. Therefore, no blog post. ;)

So. Today. Nothing happened.
And it's Monday, so...nufink.
I honestly don't know what to say in these blog posts. I had plans for some...but those involve pictures and uploading and honestly, I do not have the patience today/yesterday/tomorrow. I'll do it soon.

I started storyboarding and planning my video, so that's good.

I learned today that when people don't bother to differentiate between the two types of diabetes, that I don't like that. And I proceed to write in my question sheet how different they are. I need to learn to be unshy and stand up to say "No, actually..."

I am tired.
And my craft fair is this weekend! Really hope it'll be profitable! :)

I kind-of ran out of blue shirts so I had to wear a tank top. And it poured rain. All day. Winter weather, how I love you. *Sarcastic face*.

I was also rereading some of my old blog posts - looking for a poem for video ideas - there's a lot of them! And it's really funny to see how my thoughts, writing style and ideas have changed. :)

Saturday, November 17, 2012


Last night, I was almost asleep, and then I had one of those 'You know, I really should check my blood sugar' moments. It was 11:40 and I WANTED TO SLEEP - but I thought I'd check, just to be safe. (Being low in the night and not waking up to treat it is a crippling fear of mine.)

So what did my blood sugar decide to be? 3.1. (56 mg/dl).

Fine, whatever. I choke down four glucose tabs. (Those things can be hard to eat. When your throat hurts and is parched, and they're powdery, and...ugh.)

10 minutes later I check again just to make sure it's gone up.

So? 3.1. Again.

Two more tabs. I don't care, I just want to sleep.

15 minutes later I check one more time.

3.1. This is ridiculous.

Four more tabs. I'll be high later. Who cares. I will do ANYTHING in order to sleep.

At this point, it's past midnight. Gr. So, FINALLY, after 10 glucose tabs, a -30% temp basal, and annoyance, I'm 4.4. Thank goodness.

I HATE nightime lows. Especially irrational ones that refuse to budge for some strange unfathomable reason.

Sometimes this condition is REALLY hard to deal with.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Terribly sorry!

I meant to post yesterday! And earlier today! But that did not happen!

Yesterday I a) met a foreign girl whose dad makes glucometers, which is pretty cool, and b) got to sleep in class. Literally and without repercussions. (It was gym. We were doing relaxation stuff.)

I've been given some AWESOME music (thanks again, other Z!), and I am going to make a storyboard for my video...soon. Soon.

That's all. Nothing happens in my life these days.

But, I promised to keep my promise.

Another random, pointless post brought to you by me. :)

Added-later-note: Diabetic characters are ALWAYS the best. First Danny, and now Todd...but Danny wins. Danny will always win. ;)

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

WDD 2012!

It was World Diabetes Day today!
And a great big thank you to everyone who wore blue (on purpose) today!
People actually understood my diabetes shirt! Woohoo! (Not quite as awesome though as the girl in a random shop that totally understood our shirts and wanted one on the weekend!)
And I am almost out of blue shirts. Repeats start soon.
I believe I'm coming down with the accursed common November cold. Ugh, real people sick.

Thank you so much to everyone who advocates for diabetes, supports diabetes, even thinks about diabetes. Everything counts, especially this month. Diabetes will always be here, and we need people to know that. We need people to support us, to think about us, to remember us. We need people to know that we don't like this, we don't want this, but it's not a burden. It's proof that we LIVE. And along with all the needles and finger pokes and highs and lows and annoying comments, there are the people. The best people, my favourite people, who I met or came closer to through this disease. When the cure day comes, I will look back on this with fondness, if only for the people.
Love you all.
Let the blue and the awareness continue. Not just for November and National diabetes month, but forever. Although I'm not wearing blue every day forever. Man, I miss my pink.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Insulin pump on TV!

Elementary! "Flight risk"! (Elementary=American Sherlock. If you don't know what Sherlock is, you probably haven't been reading this enough. XD)

And it was funny 'cause Holmes said the guy was wearing a (random sequence of numbers) pager, but then Watson corrected him with "Actually, that's an insulin pump. The man you're looking for is diabetic."

And then I actually saw the pump! (Really, it was just like the many I've seen before.) But, it was on TV, so it was cool.

But then there's the confusing part: The man was portrayed to be, and then said to be, Type 2. And wearing an insuling pump.

I don't claim to know a lot about Type 2 - I know that the stereotypes are just that, stereotypes - but I do know that insulin pumps are quite primarily for Type 1s and that most Type 2s don't even take insulin.

So, yay on the sighting, but sigh on the confusion, I guess?

Just had to share. :)

Excited and nervous.

The JDRF Annual Youth Video Contest is up!


Now...just to figure out how to make a good video...with the theme 'My diabetes journey'...

S'all good. I have ideas. I have film. And pictures. And happiness. And enthousiasm.

Does anybody know how to get permission to use a song in a non-commercial video?

And World Diabetes Day is tomorrow! Bring on the blue! (And the diabetes shirt XD)

Monday, November 12, 2012

Awesome weekend!

So, as I've been told by many people, I haven't posted since Friday. Apologies. :)

Why did I not post when I promised to post every day, you ask?

Because I had a very busy, very awesome weekend.

With my DPB Z.

And it was SO AWESOME to see her again!

We spent the weekend shoppin', talkin', chillin', video makin', Remembrance day rememberin', and being overall happy. (Except for the Remembrance day ceremony, at which we were sombre.) (And I've decided that Gs are too formal tonight.)

It was awesome. And now I have footage for my video! (Thanks for your camera holdin' and llama dancin' and awesome craziness, Z!)

Oh, and bacon-nutella crepes are good, but I think they're an acquired taste.
And I spent this evening writing a persuasive essay and being sad because I love Sparks too much.
And I am definitely going to put diabetes on my resume. XD

Love you Z! Thanks for coming! <3

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Drunk on happiness.

Last night I completely lost track of time and stumbled upstairs before I fell asleep on my feet, so, I didn't post. My bad. :) I won't tell you what time that was, because everyone will laugh at me. XD

Been feeling a bit crazy lately...kind of drunk on happiness and with no one to express my happiness to who'll understand. Does anybody I know like talking about kids? Like, how cute and sweet and funny and wonderful and awesome to be with there are? And how happy they make me? And how I've been on Cloud 9 for the last week because all I can think about is Sparks? How one hand squeeze, one 'I like you' and one hug has kept me smiling when I really didn't want to?

Well. I'm happy. That's good. I think that working with Sparks is the best thing I've ever chosen to do.

Z WILL BE HERE IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS!!! <3 :) <3 :) <3 :) CAN'T WAIT!


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Feeling weird.

Today was not the greatest of days. Because of stuff that I really wish never existed. (See: being a girl.)

And I had a really weird low today. Everything was a little muted, and I was kinda caught in my own brain, and my knees nearly buckled at one point...I don't know. It was weird. But it was only 3.7, which made it even weirder.

So because today was such a not-great day, I'm going to bed. Even though it's not even 8.30. Because I don't like feeling like this and I plan to feel awesome THIS WEEKEND WHEN Z WILL BE HERE!!!!!!!!!!

And I was going to go to bed without posting, but then I would have felt very guilty. So here's a post that doesn't really make much sense and doesn't have any point at all.

Going now, before I say anything else that may incriminate me. XD


Monday, November 5, 2012

What a disappointment.

So, I was just watching Bones. (For the first time in a long time - what the heck is up with your scheduling, FOX?)

For anybody that doesn't know, Bones is a anthropology murder mystery which means that there's A LOT of sciency stuff  that I have no idea what it means, and there's always a fairly gruesome murder that leads to sciency stuff.

This episode was about apples.
And at the end of the episode, Bones (main character) and Booth (her boyfriend/kind-of husband/baby's daddy - I don't even know) were enjoying applesauce. Booth said that the organic, all-natural applesauce was good even though it was 9 bucks a jar (previously having complained about the price XD) and said that "Hey, it'll keep the doctors away!"

And then Bones says "Actually, the opposite may be true. Apples contain a lot of sugar, and if you have too many you could get diabetes."

And there I was, waiting for a specification, an explanation, more sciency stuff to justify that statement.


Really, Bones? Why?!?! Not okay!

Why can't all diabetes in the media be portrayed like in Body of Proof? (Please come back soon, Body of Proof. I love you.)

Sunday, November 4, 2012

They've taught me everything and they'll never know it.

I did not post yesterday.
Because I spent my weekend at Spark camp! (For those of you that don't know, Sparks is the branch of Girl Guides of Canada for 5 and 6 year-old girls.)

It was some of the best fun I've had in a long time.

And it was also some of the best learning I've ever had.

Over the course of the weekend, I spent 38 hours with 20 girls. And I learned A LOT:

  • Having a hand to hold can make even the utterly unbearable okay
  • It's okay to want your mummy
  • Hearing a voice can change everything
  • A hug fixes everything
  • Be confident
  • Hug, smile, and love everyone and everything
  • Live the little things
  • Some people are high maintenance
  • It's okay to cry
  • There is a HUGE difference between kindergartners and first graders
  • I love being needed
  • I will put up with sitting uncomfortably for an HOUR if it'll get one little girl to be content
  • A hug and a hand squeeze from a lonely little girl is the best thing I've ever felt
  • Onesies are the CUTEST things IN THE WORLD
  • Helping someone to be strong is the best thing I've ever done.

It's only been an hour and a half and I want them back already!

And I did not wear blue yesterday. Because I was dressed as Thing 1! Which was awesome! And my hairtie was blue, so I guess it's okay.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Two hours.

That's how long my site lasted.

Two. Freakin'. Hours.
No more than that.
Couldn't it have at least gone half a day? Or AT LEAST been killed more dignifiedidly than by my hoodie sleeve?


AND THEN, because I was at school, going to gym class and in the changeroom and there were no available washroom stalls, I had to change my site in non-personal space. Dislike. AND, as I was pulling off the curvy paper that makes the adhesive wait, it broke. So then I had to scrimp everything up to pull off the paper and  now there's a crimp in my site, which is in my stomach, which is NOT where I wanted it to be. :(

And as I was going into the class because I didn't want to be late, I was loading the cartridge, etc. I sat down on the bleachers next to an...acquaintance (this is the same one who said "There are no Sparks here!" and "Why don't you have a pump?", those of you who've heard that story.) Anyway, I sat down next to her and she looked at my pump:

"What's that?"
"OHMYGOD! Is that a needle?!"
*taking it back because NO, YOU CAN'T TOUCH THAT!*
"Kind of."
"Do you have to stab it in your finger?! Oh my god!"
"Where do you put it then?! In your finger?"
"No, it clips into my cannula." *clip*
"Oh. I could never do that."
"Well, I have to."
"Yeah, but you had a choice at the start, right?"
"Well, if I want to stay alive, then GUESS WHAT I have to."

There was more to this conversation, believe it or not.
And at least I got to do my awareness bit, even though I am getting a cold and couldn't focus or care all day.

Well. At least that was partially healed by a friend (who I haven't known for very long) telling me that she would find a cure for me because she wanted to cure something. <3

So, that was my day. I'm now going to go and drink lots of tea in order to get rid of this almost-cold because it's SPARK CAMP TONIGHT!!! :)

Thursday, November 1, 2012

November: Day one.

November has begun.
Which means that as of today until November 30th, I shall not wear any pink. Or green. Or red, or yellow, or any other colour that may be in my shirt drawer. Nope, only blue.

Camp shirt and blue socks today. :)

And although the day started early and french/socials was boring, lunch was AWESOME (lots of laughter and some water thrown in - literally) and English followed suit. 18/20 and awesome comments from my teacher on my response journal!!! Woot!!!

And although I have nothing interesting to say today, just wanted to say that my goals WILL BE FULFILLED! *maniac laugh*

Here's to lots of blue, lots of awareness, and lots of blog posts! :)